Real Now

I’ve been goin’ through some shit that’s gettin’ real now (yeah)
People dying all around me man I’m tellin’ you this shit is gettin’ real now (yeah)
Lost my grandma didn’t know it can you tell me how that feel now? (yeah)
Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn’t know if it was real now
Praying that they got wrong number
Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now

I was goin’ thru the motions I was doin’ all my shit
Turnin’ twenty in the city I was too focused to quit
Got on facetime with my granny and she told she was proud
One week later she was gone and now she up above the clouds
Never got the chance to tell that I loved her for her legacy
Everything she did and all she wanted was the best for me
Tell me why the good times always comin’ with the bad
Never thought I’d see the tears ever comin’ from my dad

I been on a mission ever since
Get it while I can
Everyday I gotta reminisce
Thinkin’ bout the past
I been killin’ all these beats
I’ve been shittin’ on these rappers
I’ve been prayin’ that I never gotta settle livin’ average

Gotta buy my mom a crib
Gotta buy my dad a whip
Gotta buy my bro the world
Gotta get it while I live

I don’t take no shit for granted cuz I seen it come and go
I’ma take over the planet yeah you fuckers better know
I’ve been goin’ through some shit that’s gettin’ real now (yeah)
People dying all around me man I’m tellin’ you this shit is gettin’ real now (yeah)
Lost my grandma didn’t know it can you tell me how that feel now? (yeah)
Got a message saying sorry for your loss I didn’t know if it was real now
Praying that they got wrong number
Tell me how the fuck I gotta deal now

I been battlin’ these thoughts that been runnin’ through my mind
Tryna make my parents proud takin’ one step at a time
But nobody understands all the shit that I’ve been goin’ thru
Workin’ on the music while I’m studying in dental school
Thinkin’ ‘bout just dropping out and doin’ what I love
But I can’t imagine leavin’ my whole family in the mud
But they never raised a coward I’ma finish what I started
I’ma juggle all this shit and keep on workin’ at my hardest
I been goin’ where my heart is yeah I know that I’m the smartest
Never think about the parties I been doin’ what my part is

I been battlin’ the best
I’ma let God do the rest
I’m not gettin’ any rest
Workin’ till I got up next

Yea I know this shit ain’t what it seems but I know I’m blessed
Every time that life is hard man I know that shit a test
They been tryna cut the weak only made it for the best
I just pray before I sleep and now I get what I request