end of a life

We’d run right through those nights
I’ll never find my way back to you inside this labyrinth of lights
There was madness in the meaning
Never laughless, we were screaming at the top of our lungs to the numbness
This city never died

I’ll fly, no proof
Those heights, I’ll never find another chance to say hey, thanks for saving my life
I was hopeless, it was stinging
Running roadless, we were singing at the top of our lungs to the numbness
This city never died

What was the root of it all?
I couldn’t say
Used to jump and then fall
Rugged and clichéd
Would shrug it off without complaint, not a sound
No use in trying to find friends, ‘cause in the end nobody sticks around
It’s when you shoved yourself into a crowded place that you turned around and found yourself in love in outer space
Cue the reckless nights, no strings, laughing at our own dreams
Just what the hell was so funny?
Bark up the wrong tree, stumble, used to falling great heights
Amidst a concrete jungle, singing ‘cause it felt right
We mixed the ennui and troubles, rhyming our discontent
And though it’s history, I can’t forget the time that we spent
Convinced that this could mean another end
Exists between real and pretend
A twisted alter-fiction where I missed my chance, did not ascend, and
Disappearing into the mist of never happened, is the me that I can never befriend
I let it go

Fade in, fade out
This crazy dream
Without a direction, floating aimlessly
There’s nothing left
Back there for me
Breathe in, but it won’t stop the rain from pouring

We’d run right through those nights
I’ll never find my way back to you inside this labyrinth of lights
There was madness in the meaning
Never laughless, we were screaming at the top of our lungs to the numbness
This city never died
But was there ever a soul inside?

Chasing fireflies between the soaring high-rises
Left a trail behind, defined it, wasted time of our lives
Silent singer, overworked and underpaid
Thinks an office is a coffin until off is where you’re laid
Yet a thought persists, an optimist who ought to be afraid
Saw the “nothing wrong” in writing songs behind the lonely shade
Is the world a sadder place without the words that you conveyed?
When the ladder fell and shattered every bar that we had played?
Does it matter in the end the sound diminished and decayed
And your friends grew tired of fantasy, you’re wishing they had stayed?
You don’t get to say I miss you, you watched your heroes fade
Into the rearview mirror of the villain you portrayed
Stop the pity party, listen
You don’t get to be dismayed
You don’t get to be emotional, feel blessed you got it made
These the best of years of life because you chose to make a trade
Recollect the days you hoped and you prayed for this
What is there to miss?

Fade in, fade out
This hazy dream
Without a direction, roaming aimlessly
There’s nothing left
Back there for me
Pretend it’s the end of a made-up story

I’ll fly, no proof
Those heights, I’ll never find another chance to say hey, thanks for saving my life
I was hopeless, it was stinging
Driving roadless, we were singing at the top of our lungs to the numbness
This city never died
I’ll say goodbye to the soul inside

(And yet somehow, there was romance
In our self-hate, we’ve got no chance
In this light maze, but let’s hold hands
Through the night haze, we’ll run so fast
till the school chime, till the train runs
We know it’s time, we’re the sane ones
Waking up now, to the real life
Let me daydream, till the next night)
I’ll keep waiting
I’ll keep waiting for you

Waking up now, to my real life
Let me daydream, till the next flight
Drowning so long, I got older
Now the crowd’s gone, is it over?
Is it over?