Is Suicide a Solution?

I am the loneliest link in a very strange chain

Peter, a friend of mine’s just committed suicide. He was a great friend of mine, and it’s… I’ve come back, and I heard that, and it’s shocked me a bit; and I wanna tell you because, um, not that you know him – that’s not the point. And he planned it out; he had a… he left his boyfriend… I mean, um, he left notes… and things. But he… he threw himself off a cliff, Peter, and… I just wondered what you think that feeling is like.

What happens, what goes through your head, between throwing yourself off, and actually dying? I wondered what you thought of it. Perhaps you could call me and tell me because it would help me, because I have a terrible fear of heights, and for me, just the idea of falling, so far, and being alive… And I just wondered if things go through your head – you know, people that you love, and that, or things that you feel that you should’ve done – flash before you, but you can’t do anything about it. I just wondered what you thought.

You’re probably the only person that I can call right now. And… I’d like to see you, because I think, in a funny way we’re doing that… we’re just… don’t really connect. One day, you know, you’re gonna fall, or I’m gonna fall, or something’s gonna happen; and… anyway. Well, I’m very sad. You know my number. Hope you’re both well. Lots of love. Bye.

(backwards)
When the gods want to punish you they answer your prayers