I Am In Great Pain, Please Help Me

Floundering attempts at making some sort of sense
Striving for significance – In a universe that will not give a shit
The myth of Sisyphus
Authenticity is important, but I’m not sure who I am anymore
I’m at the point now where I’m also doubting who I was before
The arbitrary nature of thought leaves me alone and paranoid
Synonyms for a void

Nobody belongs, time brings invalidation
Find selfish solace in mutual trepidation

The absurd condition of human existence – a struggle to embrace
I do not get the point that I am supposed to miss
The passive submission or preferred resistance – just give me breathing space
The meaning I used to find – overanalyzed, displaced
Dispense your goals and actions into something trivial
Pick apart pointless projects, my brain sings with vitriol
I don’t reflect, I destroy with thinking
The examined life is not worth living

Look at my sad life in detail and you’ll see it is a comedy
Sometimes I wish I was a goat