Stan

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can’t see at all
And even if I could it’d all be gray, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it’s not so bad, it’s not so bad

Dear Slim, I wrote, but you still ain’t callin
I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom
I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got ‘em
There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin’

Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot ‘em
But anyways, fuck it, what’s been up man, how’s your daughter?
My girlfriend’s pregnant too, I’m bout to be a father
If I have a daughter, guess what I’ma call her?
I’ma name her Bonnie

I read about your uncle Ronnie too, I’m sorry
I had a friend kill himself over some bitch who didn’t want him
I know you probably hear this everyday, but I’m your biggest fan
I even got the underground shit that you did with Scam

I got a room full of your posters and your pictures, man
I like the shit you did with Ruckus too, that shit was fat
Anyways, I hope you get this man, hit me back, just to chat
Truly yours, your biggest fan, this is Stan

My tea’s gone cold I’m wondering why I
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window and I can’t see at all
And even if I could it’ll all be gray, but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it’s not so bad, it’s not so bad

Dear Slim, you still ain’t called or wrote
I hope you have the chance
I ain’t mad, I just think it’s fucked up you don’t answer fans
If you didn’t want to talk to me outside your concert
You didn’t have to but you could have signed an autograph
for Matthew
That’s my little brother, man. He’s only 6 years old
We waited in the blistering cold for you for 4 hours
and ya just said no
That’s pretty shitty man, you’re like his fuckin’ idol
He wants to be just like you man, he likes you more
than I do

I ain’t that mad, but I just don’t like bein’ lied to
Remember when we met in Denver, you said if I write you
You would write back. See, I’m just like you in a way
I never knew my father neither
He used to always cheat on my mom and beat her

I can relate to what you’re sayin’ in your songs
So when I have a shitty day, I drift away and put ‘em on
Cause I don’t really got shit else, so that shit helps
when I’m depressed
I even got a tattoo with your name across the chest

Sometimes I even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It’s like adrenaline. The Pain is such a sudden rush for me
See, everything you say is real, and I respect you
‘Cause you tell it
My girlfriend’s jealous, ‘cause I talk about you 24/7
But she don’t know you like I know you, Slim, no one does
She don’t know what it was like for people like us growing up
You’ve gotta call me man. I’ll be the biggest fan
you’ll ever lose
Sincerely yours, Stan
PS: we should be together too

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can’t see at all
And even if I could it’d all be gray, to put your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it’s not so bad, it’s not so bad

Dear Mr. I’m-Too-Good-To-Call-Or-Write-My-Fans
This’ll be the last package I ever send, your ass
It’s been six months and still no word. I don’t
deserve it?
I know you got my last two letters, I wrote the
addresses on ‘em perfect

So this is my cassette I’m sending you. I hope you hear it
I’m in the car right now. I’m doing 90 on the freeway
Hey Slim: I drank a fifth of vodka, ya dare me to drive?
You know that song by Phil Collins from The Air In The Night?
About that guy who could have saved that other guy from drowning?
But didn’t? Then Phil saw it all then at his show he found him?
That’s kinda how this is. You could have rescued me from drowning
Now it’s too late. I’m on a thousand downers now, I’m drowsy

And all I wanted was a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know I ripped all of your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim, we could have been together. Think about it
You ruined it now, I hope you can’t sleep and you dream about it
And when you dream, I hope you can’t sleep and you scream aboutit
I hope your conscious eats at you and you can’t breathe withoutme
See Slim, shut up bitch, I’m trying to talk
Hey Slim, that’s my girlfriend screaming in the trunk
But I didn’t slit her throat
I just tied her up, see I ain’t like you
‘Cause if she suffocates, she’ll suffer more
and then she’ll die too
Well, gotta go, I’m almost at the bridge now
Oh shit, I forgot, how am I supposed to send this shit out?

My tea’s gone cold, I’m wondering why I got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window and I can’t see at all
And even if I could it’d all be great, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it’s not so bad, it’s not so bad

Dear Stan, I meant to write you sooner, but I’ve just been busy
You said your girlfriend’s pregnant now, how far along is she?
Look, I’m really flattered you would call your daughter that
And here’s an autograph for your brother: I wrote it
on your Starter cap

I’m sorry I didn’t see you at the show, I must have missed you
Don’t think I did that shit intentionally, just to diss you
And what’s this shit you said about you
like to cut your wrists too?
I say that shit just clownin’ dawg
c’mon, how fucked up is you?
You got some issues, Stan, I think you need some counselin’
To help your ass from bouncin’ off the
walls when you get down some

And what’s this shit about us meant to be together?
That type of shit’ll make me not want us to meet each other
I really think you and your girlfriend need each other
Or maybe you just need to treat her better
I hope you get to read this letter
I just hope it reaches you in time
Before you hurt yourself, I think that you’d be doin’
just fine
If you’d relax a little. I’m glad that I inspire you, but Stan
Why are you so mad? Try to understand that I do want
you as a fan
I just don’t want you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit on the news a couple weeks ago
that made me sick
Some dude was drunk and drove his car over a bridge
And had his girlfriend in the trunk and she was
pregnant with his kid
And in the car they found a tape but it didn’t say who
It was to
Come to think about it, his name was, iIt was you
Damn