Antidote

Finding refuge in my own lies
How are you? I’m doing alright
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be, just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I’ve lost the drive
Just let me be, just let me
Let me be okay

No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There’s a new kind of poison and it’s starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don’t think I need help
But I’m scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok

All the voices in my head are coming to life
They’re getting louder and I, I’m terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I’ve become?
Take it back; what have I done?

No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There’s a new kind of poison and it’s starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don’t think I need help
But I’m scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok

No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There’s a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans, I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror make you go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake

No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There’s a new kind of poison and it’s starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head