Popular Monster

I wake up every morning
With my head up in a daze
I’m not sure if I should say this fuck’ I’ll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I’m going through a phase I don’t know if it’s a phase
I just wanna feel okay
I battle with depression but the question still remains is this post traumatic stressin’ or
Am I suppressing rage and my doctor tries to tell me that I’m going through a phase yea it’s not a fuc*** phase I just wanna feel okay
Okay yea I battle with this bullshit everyday
and it’s probably cause my demons simultaneously rage.
And it obliterates me
Disintegrates me
Annihilates me

Cause I’m about to break down
Searching for a way out
I’m a liar I’m a cheater I’m a non-believer
I’m a popular, popular monster
I break down falling into love now
With falling apart
I’m a popular popular monster

I think I’m going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace I’m in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace
how the f*** will I escape if I never close my case?
Whoa.
Oh my god I keep on stressin’ every second
That I waste is another second sooner to a blessing’ I won’t take but my therapist will tell me that I’m going through a stage it’s not a fuc*** stage I just wanna feel okay
Okay motherfuc*** now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things cause something is missin’
and what if I were to lie?
Tell you everything is fine
Every single fuc*** day I get closer to the grave I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me
Disintegrates me
Annihilates me
Cause

I’m about to break down
Searching for a way out
I’m a liar I’m a cheater
I’m a non believer
I’m
A popular, popular monster
I break down falling into love now
With falling apart
I’m a popular, popular fuc***
MONSTER

Here we go again motherfuc***.

We’re sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don’t believe
We’re Searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is
Where the f*** is your god now?

Cause I’m about to break down
Searching for a way out

I’m a liar I’m a cheater I’m a non-believer
I’m a popular, popular monster
I break down falling into love now
With falling apart
I’m a popular popular monster (x2)