Selfish Me

A question whispered an indecision bathed in a bitter ignorance
How much selfish am I?

Hush, it’s a secret! Promise that you’ll keep it
Pretend that you’ve been fixed and cured
Hold your tears ‘til the night

I’m a lake with many entries but with no exit
So, let me live this blight

I don’t plan to shrivel, to change my evil, or not even my egocentricity
Did I decided right?

I shout aloud to my inner demons
Only to realize they’re stronger than me
I can’t do anything, I’ve been beaten
This invisible ghost, who resides inside me, has completely eaten me up

Thinking about my aches, worrying about my self only
Omitting others who are deeper in the quicksand
Ignoring the problems of today’s world

I’m running around in circles
Please, put me back into my place
I’m spinning wildly high!