FU

Tell me that you care
Stroking my hair
Like you’re not the reason I’m here on the floor
Counting my breaths
Thank God for friends
The only advice I’ve been taking is yours

Should’ve ignored it
I couldn’t ignore it
I missed all the warnings

It’s been so long since I
Looked at you in the eye
I don’t know anybody like I know you
Oh, and now I wish I never had to

Sigh, pretend it’s ok
Now I feel ashamed
For wanting to feel something other than sad
Mum says I’ve changed
Lost too much weight
She never liked you that much anyway

But I’ll never notice
The signs when they surface
Is this really worth it

It’s been so long since I
Looked at you in the eye
I don’t know anybody like I know you
Oh, and now I wish I never had to

Should’ve ignored it
I couldn’t ignore it
But it’s so important
It’s been so long since I
Looked at you in the eye
I don’t know anybody like I know you
Oh, and now I wish I never had to