HaZe (HVN)

Day dreamin’ to Lucy land
Lucidly scramblin’ wakin’ myself up
Coughing fits and cancer sticks again
Bet I’m back on my bullshit my friend
I know you expected nothing less
But I can’t make do and mend

Remember when I wasn’t so fixated with worry or tracking my loss in dividends?
Yea I can sport you a smile, but I feel deep down it’s all pretend
And now I fear the end
‘Cause maybe I’ma end
Up alone somewhere for mental care in an institution

All these thoughts that run through my brain
I can not contain ‘em
I’m going insane
All of this fear that rots at my brain
Fuckin’ me up, burnin’ me down, lead me astray

All these thoughts that run through my brain
I can not contain ‘em
I’m going insane
All of this fear that rots at my brain
Fuckin’ me up, burnin’ me down, lead me astray

I’ve been in a daze for days
Stuck in a haze as I age
My record skips
I’ll blaze it away in haste just so that I can press play

This wave that I’m stuck on
Oh, where did I go wrong?
I don’t belong
Think it won’t be long
I’m already singin’ my swan song
Each time the flashbacks occur
They lash back worse
And I know these just words
But the panic’ll set in before I finish the verse

I can’t catch my breath
In over my head
Sink in my bed with the feeling of dread
Contemplating takin’ my medication
Just dead instead, what a thought, now I’m pacing
Back and forth
Like a clock on the wall
As the hour hand falls
And I sweat in withdrawal

I’m growing impatient of waiting for the end I’m creating

Drowning
I forgot how to tread
Drowning
I’m sinking in my head

Drowning
I forgot how to tread
Drowning
It’s consuming me and soon I’ll be dead