Thankful

Lord knows that I let ‘em humble me
All this shit, it should’ve crumbled me
Looked [?] tumbleweed
Ain’t nobody had no love for me
Crazy facin’ that reality
Everyone thought I would be defeated
Lookin’ back sometimes I can’t believe it
Now I know that I don’t need it
Yeah, ’91 you used to hold me
2010 you should’ve shown me
2015 you disposed me
Lookin’ for someone to love me
Always put [?] above me
Wish you taught me how to love me

‘Cause I remember those nights yeah
What alone could feel like yeah
Somethin’ never feels right and
You’re still pretending that you’re fine and
You freely drivin’ while you blinded
Had to end up in the firepit
And ain’t nobody gonna care till you’re gone
Shoulder weighin’ like a 100 pounds
I could wait too many [?]
[?] Used to keep me up all night
Now I’m doin’ alright
I be lookin’ at these battle scars
And I be smilin’ oh ‘cause
I’m just thankful that I’m alive

Now I’m out here feelin’ grateful
Grindin’ hard and I lay low
[?] Like a halo
Blowin’, lookin’ like a nigga bawlin’
I see niggas wanna hate tho
I been through a lot of shit
A lot of niggas in my shoes
They would have gave up
Let a lot of hatin’ niggas in my circle
Shit I finally had to wake up, yeah
Yeah I’m takin’ all my love with me
Give it to the ones who fought for me
Used to let ‘em keep me up stressin’
All night, all night

Friends to enemies real quick
Wanna see you doin’ good
That’s somethin’ that these niggas
Really can’t deal with
I used to let ‘em niggas in
And I ain’t doin’ that again
They don’t wanna see you win, be cautious
I got money in the bank now
Niggas tryna understand how
I been feelin’ like a man now, I
Yeah I used to think
[?] Silly dreams
And I would stay up dreamin’
Now I think about it all night
Pain turned into my medicine
Now you never see me settlin’
I look back and I know I’ma win
No matter what there’s no questionin’