Sinking Feeling

I don’t know what to think of life
When I try to revive my will to get up
When down, I don’t know how I’m supposed to cry
When all I’m told is to smile
I wish you would see my side of this crooked life of mine
I pray

I don’t know what I’m thinking
When I have all these sinking feelings
Why can’t I just sink
When all these people always have me screaming?

All of the voices in my head
Are telling me to go crazy
Going outside for breathing all air
Always seems very scary

Socialising is a skill
That’s always so very demanding
Why can’t people leave me all alone
When I’m by myself crying?

What’s with all of these people
Not minding their own goddamn business?
Please, I beg, just let me cry all alone in
With my feelings of sadness

Stuck inside my comfort zone
I’m too scared to try to open up
I just want my thoughts second to none
I hope I can share your love for the time you’ve spared
Because I don’t think I can bear the thought
Of my tears to flow freely

I don’t know what I’m thinking
When I have all these sinking feelings
Why can’t I just sink
When all these people always have me screaming?

All of the voices in my head
Are telling me to go crazy
Going outside for breathing all air
Always seems very scary

Socialising is a skill
That’s always so very demanding
Why can’t people leave me all alone
When I’m by myself crying?

What’s with all of these people
Not minding their own goddamn business?
Maybe there’s a chance for me
To share all of my love to you

I just hope that I can go out to make so many memories
Maybe we can all go shopping or all go out to get ice cream
Maybe not every single person is so super scary?
My heart might sparkle after all of the constant endless trying

Going outside my little zone is not always so easy
But, in the end, it’s always so worth it when I see you smiling
Sure, the world might sometimes be harsh or dark and so terrifying
But, in the end, it’s always worth it to make memories with you!!