Disdain

I am the hand of madness
I am the end, I am the beginning
I am the hand of madness.
So here I am, strapped to a body and a mind I can’t stand.
I’m crying out, give me a hand..
How do I brace myself solely on the man I am?

How can I be happy with myself?
Is there a point? Is there meaning?
Everyone’s consumed with themselves
We’ve lost it all because you’re fucked in the head.
If life was black and white, with better times and far better people.
We’ve lost it all, we’ve sent this place to hell.

So here I stand, strapped to a body and a mind I can’t stand.
I’m crying out, won’t you please, give me a hand?
Give me a sign, I need an explanation.
Give me some sanity to stand up to these fears that I’m facing.
If were stronger than I’d stand with some dignity.
But it’s harder when you’re looking in the face of your enemy.

All I feel is hate, just get out of my mind.
You say you feel the pain, it’s just another lie.
Take a second to sink to my level.
I hold it in, but it’s making me sick.
I swear to God I’m releasing a devil.
You let it out, and now you have to answer to it.

So here I stand, strapped to a body and a mind I can’t stand.
I’m crying out, won’t you please, give me a hand?
Give me a sign, I need an explanation.
Give me some sanity to stand up to these fears that I’m facing.
If were stronger than I’d stand with some dignity.
But it’s harder when you’re looking in the face of your enemy
All I feel is empty, so I’ll make this place my home.
What is there to care about? When nothing cares for me.