Hollowed

Can I begin to start again?
Let go and just forget the way it’s always been?
Everything that held me back
And everyone who didn’t believe in me
Gone like a heart attack
Does it have to be, does it have to be so bad?
Fuck these memories I wish I never had
Good things don’t come to those who wait
All I am is just filled with self-hate (filled with self-hate)

I don’t belong here, I won’t have any fear
I’ve seen this all through
Hollow soul, empty body
If you only really knew
Hollow soul, empty body
If you only really knew
In a haze, emotionless for days
Learning to cope in my own ways
I know there’s no exit
To this never-ending maze (ending maze)
When you look at me
Do you see a shell of what I used to be? (what I used to be)
Do you see a shell of what I once was?

Death may be what I need
I pray one last time, just waiting for a sign
Relax and fucking breathe
Do you even know what this all means?

Who is this person that I see?
I’m trying to find my way
But I’m lost in a memory
Lost in a memory
I close my eyes to escape
But all I can see is your face

Pain so intense
Something only in my dreams, in my dreams
Now I face the reality of what’s inside (can I begin to start again?)
Should I fucking give up and just say goodbye? (can I start again?)
Nowhere in sight to hide, oh

Is this all worth dying
All worth dying for?