may

You have been so timeless
And I have been unseen
I know you’ve been so tired
Now you can rest in my dreams
Now you know my depression when I talk in my sleep
Somehow we lost our connection and I can’t believe
You couldn’t hear me sing tributes to you
How could someone live with this weight?
But baby, if you were here, I wouldn’t give a damn
Why do we only value things when we lose them?
Somehow you gather the whole family
But you’re not here this year for the Christmas Eve

And we recall on May
Where we wake and play
All the stupid fun games that you could make with a piece of paper
Wish I was eight again
‘Cause I just can’t remember anything we did when you moved far away

May I see you again?
Or may I go instead of you?
May we start it again?
‘Cause everything looks wrong when they once belonged to me

I remember waking up
The lights were purple when my mom called
We bought the last bus tickets to your city
Just to know we are late in the end of it all
Mom said: She’s listening
Sister cried her: Girl, you have to be strong
I’m paralyzed
I couldn’t believe you were leaving me
And then said I love you for the last time

And we recall on May
Where we wake and play
All the stupid fun games that you could make with a piece of paper
Wish I was eight again
‘Cause I just can’t remember anything we did when you moved far away

May I see you again?
Or may I go instead of you?
May we start it again?
‘Cause everything looks wrong when they once belonged to me
To me
To me
To me, yeah, yeah
I love you