Depression

Hey I’m not in a good mood lately
Not that I ever was
I just wanted someone to talk
I hope I don’t bother you
I don’t call you frequently
And I don’t complain about my problems anymore
Even if they’re not real after all
I don’t say negative things like it’s something wrong
We don’t talk about our feelings we’re afraid of the world

I don’t really feel anything at all
No sadness, no anger, no disappointment anymore
Just emptiness in my room of white walls
It’s safe being alone, you’re protected from the world
When depression hits I prefer to stay at home

I’ll never understand why I’m grieving
But I just stopped it one month ago
Now there’s no expression of negative thoughts
I’m starting to feel ashamed of showing too much pain
I’ll probably cover it up with a smile so fake
I still don’t know how to fix my mind though
I’m overthinking about things I’d better not
But I can make the thoughts go away
By pretending to be busy when I do nothing at all

I don’t really feel anything at all
No sadness, no anger, no disappointment anymore
Just emptiness in my room of white walls
It’s safe being alone, you’re protected from the world
When depression hits I prefer to stay at home

I like looking down from the window
But others don’t, cause they think I might fall
There’s someone shouting at me from the down floor
Hey don’t be afraid I’m just observing, nothing more

I don’t really feel anything at all
No sadness, no anger, no disappointment anymore
Just emptiness in my room of white walls
It’s safe being alone, you’re protected from the world
When depression hits I prefer to stay at home