Weep

My mood changes violently
One minute I’m sad
The other I’m angry
One second I’m mad
And then I look happy

It’s never normal
It always looks extreme
And it’s tough
To putting up with it

I’m not okay
I never claimed to be
So don’t ask me
How do I really feel
It can be tiring living with me
And I’m thankful that you are helping me

I’m all dressed up
In such enthusiasm
And suddenly I won’t leave the house
I’m about to lock myself up
And never go out

I’m always failing at smiling
Cause it always looks forced
So I stopped trying
Cause it doesn’t worth

I’m not okay
I never claimed to be
So don’t ask me
How do I really feel
It can be tiring living with me
And I’m thankful that you are helping me

I love crying in crowded places like trains
Where nobody is asking me if I’m okay
I like hiding behind my glasses and hat
So no one can see how miserable I really am
And I can cry anywhere and so bad
But nobody is actually aware of that

I’m not okay
I never claimed to be
So don’t ask me
How do I really feel
It can be tiring living with me
And I’m thankful that you are helping me

And every time I sleep
My problems haunting me
And then I start to weep
Till I can barely breathe
Insomnia takes the wheel
And it’s the worst thing