I'm Trying

She said,
“I’m not pointing fingers”
But he said
“Yes you are
Cause you wouldn’t bring it up if you weren’t”

And if I told you I’d been walking
Out in the dark night thinking,
Would you take as true
This alcoholic’s word?
Oh I can’t change. What’s done is done.
But I can tell you this:
“Not a day goes by that I don’t curse myself
And all my sins”

And I need you to hold on to
While this part of me is dying
Though I haven’t kicked the demons
That haunt me
I’m tryin’
I’m tryin’

She sat down on the floor
And said, “I wish that I was stronger”
Right now I feel as fragile as glass
And I want to believe you
Believe what’s held you has freed you
I hate these doubts that keep on coming back
My parents think I’m crazy
For hanging on this long
But there’s nothing I want more for us
Than to prove to them they’re wrong

And I don’t wanna be afraid
I don’t wanna think you’re lyin’
And though I haven’t found the faith that I need
I’m tryin’
I’m tryin’

He asked, “Do you want me to leave
Cause if you do, you know I will”
But she said much to his disbelief
“No, I love you still
Oh, I love you still”

He said, “I don’t know why I’ve been the fool
But I can tell you this:
“Not a day goes by that I don’t curse myself
And my sins”
Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were cryin’
He said: “I haven’t been the man I want to be
But I’m tryin’
I’m tryin’
I’m tryin’
I’m tryin'”