Beautiful Suicide

On the road to my own self destruction
Narcissism goading me today
Never finding perfection
Reflecting someone I’d rather be
A work on art on-going
My canvas about to peel
I’ll face those consequences
They always said I’m so extreme
Is the truth I’m hiding
The veneer under my sheen

Beautiful suicide
Take a look inside yourself
For the beauty you couldn’t find
My beautiful suicide
I just need to find myself
Somewhere on the other side

It took hold, became my life’s obsession
This leopard deserves his right to change
With surgical correction
Chrysalis, my butterfly escaped
Life’s killing jar withholding
The real me in such a state
Breaking down my defences
While sleeping beauty starts to wake
Why have I been hiding in a body that felt so fake?
Can you see my star?
Just remember me
I will always shine

Beautiful suicide
Take a look inside yourself
For the beauty you couldn’t find
My beautiful suicide
I just need to find myself
Somewhere on the other side

Now I found composure
Those good memories remain
I would bring you some closure
And visit you again someday
Free spirit looking skywards
Single feather floating down
Pick it up and please remember
It represents the peace I’ve found

Beautiful suicide
Take a look inside yourself
For the beauty you couldn’t find
My beautiful suicide
I just need to find myself
Somewhere on the other side

My beautiful suicide
I just need to find myself
Somewhere on the other side

Now I’ve found my peace
Don’t be afraid
If you want to smile