Golden G String

I woke up in Montecito
I was thinkin’ about my life
And the questions made more questions
Starin’ out into the night
Yes, I’ve worn the golden g-string
Put my hand into hellfire
I did it all to make you love me and to feel alive

Oh, that’s just the world that we’re livin’ in
The old boys hold all the cards and they ain’t playin’ gin
You dare to call me crazy, have you looked around this place?
I should walk away
Oh, I should walk away
But I think I’ll stay

There are layers to this body
Primal sex and primal shame
They told me I should cover it
So I went the other way
I was tryin’ to own my power
Still I’m tryin’ to work it out
And at least it gives the paper somethin’ they can write about

And oh, that’s just the world that we’re livin’ in
The old boys hold all the cards and they ain’t playin’ gin
And you dare to call me crazy, have you looked around this place?
I should walk away
Oh, I should walk away
But I think I’ll stay

So the mad man is in the big chair
And his heart’s an iron vault
He says: If you can’t make ends meet, honey, it must be your fault
We all focus on the winners
And get blinded by their shine
Maybe caring for each other’s just too 1969

But oh, that’s just the world that we’re livin’ in
The old boys hold all the cards and they ain’t playin’ gin
And you dare to call me crazy, have you looked around this place?
I should walk away
Oh, I should walk away
But I think I’ll stay

And I think I’ll stay, yeah
I have too much lose
So I think I’ll stay
I can’t walk away