Who I've Become

On another red eye
from LA to Nashville
I’m so tired
I’ll smile but I’m sad still
It’s lonely
Between cities of people
Who Don’t know me
They don’t know me

But do I even know myself

I’ve closed my eyes
I’m scared of who I’ve become
I live in disguise
As if it heals the harm I’ve done
My reflection screams
“You’re not enough anymore”
“Forget all your dreams”
“You were better off before”

I don’t know who I’ve become

In the back seat of my Uber
From the airport to get home
I asked her
What’s it like, late at night
Driving strangers
She said
“it’s lonely, no one even knows me”
“They don’t know me”

But do I even know myself

I’ve closed my eyes
I’m scared of who I’ve become
I live in disguise
As if it heals the harm I’ve done
My reflection screams
“You’re not enough anymore”
“Forget all your dreams”
“You were better off before”

I’ve closed my eyes
I’m scared of who I’ve become
I live in disguise
As if it heals the harm I’ve done
My reflection screams
“You’re not enough anymore”
“Forget all your dreams”
“You were better off before”

I don’t know who I’ve become