Heavy

Do you think about me at night?
When the sky is losing light
I swear my head fills up with memories every time
Are you moving on with your life?
Did you find a job you like?
Always thought you could do anything

And I’ve been running over all the things that I will never say to you
Like how I just wanna hang with you
And watch Grand Designs
And I’ve been trying to train my mind to put you in another category
But it’s still not coming naturally
After all this time

So tell me why this has to be so heavy
Tell me why this has to be
‘Cause I really thought that we’d be cool
Some exception to the rule
But honestly, I think it has to be this heavy

I wish your mum and I could be friends
I think about her now and then
How we drove up to her house
I’ll never see that dog again
I guess I needed a minute
To live a life without you in it
But you’re in every stripey t-shirt that I own

Oh, I’ve been running over all the things that I will never say to you
Like how I just wanna sing with you
As we’re walking home
And I’ve been kissing different faces just to make it a reality
Oh, I did it for the therapy
But I felt alone

So tell me why this has to be so heavy
Tell me why this has to be
‘Cause I really thought that we’d be cool (we’d be cool)
Some exception to the rule
But honestly, I think it has to be this heavy

Do you think about, do you think about, think about
Do you think about, do you think about it too?
Do you think about, do you think about, think about
Do you think about, do you think about it too?
Do you think about, do you think about, think about
Do you think about, do you think about it too?
Do you think about, do you think about, think about
Do you think about, do you think about it too?