Heavy Moon

I’ve been sleeping in ‘til late
Worried about what to say
When friends ask me how I’m doing
Just smile: I’m okay
I’d hate to bring you down this rabbit hole with me
Of unwashed clothes and bloodshot eyes
And a head far too heavy

I don’t need your fucking sympathy
Just want you to hate myself as much
As much as I hate me

I blame the heavy moon

A cold shower to shock the nerves
But that shit doesn’t work
When you can’t feel anything anyway
And that new leaf never turns
I’m sick of feeling like I don’t fucking fit in
So I mark myself permanently
And let the ink speak through my skin

I don’t need your fucking sympathy
Just want you to hate myself as much
As much as I hate (me)

Grinding my teeth
Feeling weak at the knees
I shut my eyes
But it seems like I keep twisting the knife
They stop and they stare
Just let me be
When will this gloom stop looming over me?

I blame the heavy moon

Held down, not against my own will
The bottom tastes better than I think it should
It’s intoxicating, but it kills anything inside that’s good
Admit it, not feeling alright

I don’t need your sympathy

Going through these motions, it’s just a part of life
But it seems like I keep twisting the knife
They stop and they stare
Just let me be
When will this gloom stop looming over me?

I can’t blame the heavy moon
(Anymore)