Party Fear

Hi
I get headaches all the time
I rain tears and let them dry
Are there medics standing by?
Okay, bye
I don’t know why I am like this
Honestly, I really try
It’s just the words don’t reach my mind

Do you ever feel stuck
Stuck in the middle of your life?
Wondering, will it be alright?
Isn’t the Moon so very bright tonight?

Oh, fuck
Maybe I suck
Maybe I’m bad luck
Do you feel stuck with me?
I’m sorry, I can’t do this stuff

Can we be clear?
I get party fear
I get anxious drinking beer
I can’t deal (I’ll get through it)
I don’t want to be here
I wish I could disappear
Dig a hole and climb into it (I’ll get through it)

I’m into all the things you like
You talk first and I’ll reply
We’ll just stand here otherwise
Okay, fine
I missed everything you said
I’ve been trapped inside my head
Wishing I was in my bed

Oh, fuck
Maybe I suck
Maybe I’m bad luck
Do you feel stuck with me?
I’m sorry, I can’t do this stuff

Can we be clear?
I get party fear
I get anxious drinking beer
I can’t deal (I’ll get through it)
I don’t want to be here
I wish I could disappear
Dig a hole and climb into it (I’ll get through it)

I don’t feel good, I don’t feel right
I don’t wanna talk, I don’t feel like it
And my brain hurts, and my chest’s tied
I don’t like fun when it’s organised
Don’t wanna socialize, I feel shit
So I sit with a cat I hate and stroke it
I fuckin’ hate this cat, in fact
Cat, get the fuck back
Get another drink, stand by the sink
Eat pretzels, have another drink
Till I’m numbed out, bummed out
Hotshots over there on a come down
I wish I never came, there’s only me to blame
I’ll be back next weekend, same same
I don’t know why I’m this way

Can we be clear?
I get party fear
I get anxious drinking beer
I can’t deal (I’ll get through it)
I don’t want to be here
I wish I could disappear
Dig a hole and climb into it (I’ll get through it)

Breathe