La Seine

We write the roles we play.
So forgive me when I don’t believe
Anything you say.
So goddamn the weight of the hand that holds you down.
Abby, goddamn it’s the weight that everyone carries around.
But it’s nothing to you,
I can see.
Pride has always had its way with me.
Cause I’m lost between
Fear and dreams,
The man you want me to be.
But I find myself
Returning endlessly-
to walking countless miles around my room,
To passing countless afternoons.
But it’s nothing to you,
I can see,
As watched you break so easily.
And like a river cuts the earth beneath my feet in two,
You can’t replace the years I lost to you.
And like a river cuts the earth beneath my feet in two,
You can’t erase all those years I lost to you.