A Doubtful Life's Anthology

I. Overture

(Instrumental)

II. New Hope

(Lyrics by Josh Carney)

I can feel the pain of life
And I can hear the whispering tide
Of my long lost love.

I’m tearing our two worlds apart.
I’m living with a dying heart.
I’ve found new hope in you.

I can see the light of day,
But you could take it all away
And steal my soul.

You’ve given me a reason to live,
And you have so much more to give.
I’ve found new hope in you.

III. Mercy

(Lyrics by Josh Carney)

You’ve begged for mercy, for passion, and for power.
Don’t beg for glory.
I’m just a coward. A vagrant. A traitor.
Don’t back out on me.
Don’t back out on me.

Oh, the world looks so cold and bleak these days.
Oh, my life is walking out the door.
Oh, the world looks so cold and bleak these days.
Oh, my life is walking out the door to say its last goodbye.

You were my sunrise, my nightfall, and my clear view.
Why are you leaving?
I can’t survive with this pain. I’m dying.
Throw me your mercy.
Throw me your mercy.

Oh, the world looks so cold and bleak these days.
Oh, my soul is walking out the door.
Oh, the world looks so cold and bleak these days.
Oh, my soul is walking out the door to mercify my life.

Oh, the world looks so cold and bleak these days.
Oh, my soul is walking out the door.
Oh, the world looks so cold and bleak these days.
Oh, my soul is walking out the door to mercify my life.

IV. Bloody Grasp

(Lyrics by Josh Carney & Joe Kiesgen)

I’m living through a tragedy.
A world outspoken, but never seen.
Countless years of force fed lies.
Whose to blame?

A doubtful life’s anthology
Is passed around for all to see.
I can’t believe conspiring eyes.
Whose to blame?

Too many days have passed without me knowing why I feel so sad.
And then it hits me like a bullet in the chest; I need you so bad.

I’ve lost my bloody grasp of hope
Since you’ve been gone.
I’ve lost my purpose in this world
Since you’ve been gone.
I won’t survive.
I can’t believe I’ve pushed myself so far
From being in your arms again.

Too many nights have left me lonely in the dark just wondering what to do.
And then I realize that I’ll never live to see the light if I can’t have you.

I’ve lost my bloody grasp of hope
Since you’ve been gone.
I’ve lost my purpose in this world
Since you’ve been gone.
I won’t survive.
I can’t believe I’ve pushed myself so far
From being in your arms.

V. Crawling Back

(Lyrics by Josh Carney)

I’ve grown.
I’m losing all my fears.
I’ve wasted all my tears to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.

I’m lost.
I can’t believe my eyes.
I cannot trust my faith to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.

I’ve grown.
I’m losing all my fears.
I’ve wasted all my tears to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.
I can’t believe my eyes.
I cannot trust my faith to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.

I feel like giving up in a world that has no truth.
I feel like dying because the sky is not so blue.
We waste our days on love and convince ourselves we know
That passion can’t deceive our Godless empty souls.

I’ve grown.
I’m losing all my fears.
I’ve wasted all my tears to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.
I can’t believe my eyes.
I cannot trust my faith to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.

I can’t believe that every word I’ve spoken true
Has been torn and mauled and fed like lies to you.
I’ve wasted countless days to convince myself again
That passion can’t deceive a world of ruthless men.

I’ve grown.
I’m losing all my fears.
I’ve wasted all my tears to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.
I can’t believe my eyes.
I cannot trust my faith to try to be with you.
I’m crawling back to you.

VI. Reckless Days

(Lyrics by Josh Carney)

Now that I’ve gone back to the beginning once again,
I can feel the love of your pain in my dying hands.
Raping my soul just to feel the light of one more day
Is the only thing that you have left for me to pay.

You’ve passed me by to drift away.
My reckless days are numbered.
For one more day you’ll stay with me.
I beg of you; please stay here with me.

Now that I’ve gone back to the beginning once again,
I can feel your lust through the cracks of my sinning hands.
Our love is pointless if we have no direction.
I love you and hate you and need you at the same time.

You’ve passed me by to drift away.
My reckless days are numbered.
For one more day you’ll stay with me.
I beg of you; please stay here with me.

VII. Soul Aflame

(Lyrics by Josh Carney)

You’ve set my soul aflame.
I’m burning in eternal hellfire.
Split my heart to watch me suffer.
You’ve set my soul aflame.
I’m burning in eternal hellfire.
Steal my heart and let it die.

Call me to your vagrant home, then show me to your heart of stone.
Call me to your ancient flame.
Call me to your vagrant home, then show me to your heart of stone.
Call me to your ancient flame, then let me drown in fear and shame.
Just let me drown to death in your flames.

You’ve set my soul aflame.
Crucified in eternal hellfire.
Strike my soul with your desire.
You’ve set my soul aflame.
Crucified in eternal hellfire.
Light my soul and let it burn.

Call me to your vagrant home, then show me to your heart of stone.
Call me to your ancient flame.
Call me to your vagrant home, then show me to your heart of stone.
Call me to your ancient flame, then let me drown in fear and shame.
Just let me drown to death in your flames.

Call me to your vagrant home, then show me to your heart of stone.
Call me to your ancient flame.
Call me to your vagrant home, then show me to your heart of stone.
Call me to your ancient flame, then let me drown in fear and shame.
Just let me drown to death in your flames.

VIII. Transparent Life

(Lyrics by Josh Carney)

I can’t remember who I am anymore.
I can’t break out of these rusty chains on my arms,
And if I wished to become much more than I am now,
The iron walls must now come down.

Will every day just pass me by?
I feel like I’m being held down below my darkest fears,
So even if I know I’m going blind,
I’ll never try to see through my life again.

I can’t recall the entryway to my life.
I can’t redeem the agony of defeat,
And if I wished to become much more than I am now,
The iron walls would tear me down.

Will every day just pass me by?
I feel like I’m being held down below my darkest fears,
So even if I know I’m going blind,
I’ll never try to see through my life again.

Will every day just pass me by?
I feel like I’m being held down below my darkest fears,
So even if I know I’m going blind,
I’ll never try to see through my life again.