Hemophilia

I come up searching in vain for you
Here on the loneliest avenue
Talking to no one and this table for two
I sleep with a phone next to my ear
Wondering if I really wish you were here
Sparked I suppose by this solo sleeping

Traveling down town I am trapped between the one and the nine
As funny as it sounds
All these choices were supposed to be mine

All of this rain is so strange for the season
As much as I love you
I can’t live without constantly bleeding

I never sleep but I’ve got my degree
And all of your family’s so proud of me
I’m perfect on paper but I’m slowly fading

I never heal but you pay for it
Me and my impotent platelets

Tend to the wound
But it’s weeping, it’s weeping

Take a walk up town I’ve got just the shoes for the course
My head hangs down, from all this remorse

All of our friends who broke up for no reason
As much as I love you
I can’t live without constantly bleeding

Don’t yell at me, yell at me, in public anymore
Cause you’re privately, privately killing me, you’re killing me to the core
Don’t yell at me, yell at me, I’ve heard this all before

I will survive and you’ll get what you’re needing
As much as I love you
I can’t live without constantly bleeding