Fair

It’s what my heart just yearns to say
In ways that can’t be said
It’s what my rotting bones will sing
When the rest of me is dead

It’s what’s engraved upon my heart
In letters deeply worn
Today I somehow understand the reason I was born

‘Cause outwardly, he says: I try so hard to make you laugh at me
And she, she does, she laughs as though
She not heard the joke ten thousand times before
And he adores her, he watches her get dressed as though she’s hurtling through time
Oh darling, please be mine

She promises to fight them all when it all becomes too much
And he, he curses at the world for leaving him behind, and he’s falling out of touch
And she is stronger than he’s ever been he knows
And she brushes her hand through his hair, he’s got so much fucking hair

And he holds her close just to keep the world at bay
And when they’re sure no-one can hear them
She’ll turn to him to say, she’ll turn to him and say

It’s not fair, It’s not fair how much I love you
It’s not fair, ‘cause you make me laugh
When I’m actually really fucking cross at you for something
And he’ll say
Oh how, oh how unreasonable
How unreasonably in love I am with everything you do
I’ll spend my days so close to you, ‘cause
If I’m standing here, maybe everyone will think I’m alright

I’ve seen enough he says, I know exactly what I want
And it’s this life that we’ve created, inundated with the fated thought of you
And if you asked me to, if you asked me, I would lose it all
Like petals in a storm, ‘cause darling I was born

To press my head between your shoulder blades at night when light is fading
Just to let you know I’m old, waylaid and feels like I am wading into
Carpet burns and carousels, oh Christ you’ll be the death of me
And calm throughout his melodrama she will turn and say: Dear heart It’s me, its me
You don’t need to pretend to be someone you’re not
‘Cause it’s not like I’ve never heard you fart and snore
And for some God forsaken reason I’m still here love like I’ve always been before
And he’ll say

It’s not fair, it’s not fair how much I love you
It’s not fair ‘cause you make me weep
When I’m just trying to watch The Office with my yoghurt
And she’ll say
Oh how, oh how unreasonable
How unreasonably in love I am with everything you do
I’ll spend my days so close to you ‘cause
If I’m standing next to you then maybe everyone will think I’m cool

How unfair, how unfair they’ll sing as they dance across the darling rooftop wreck
He’ll trip and she’ll pretend not to have seen
Burying her head into his chest and clinging to the moment, where have you been?
She’ll whisper: I’ve waited oh so long for you to come
And as the stars above them hum and hear them
He’ll turn to her and say: That’s what she said

It’s not fair, it’s not fair how much I love you
It’s not fair ‘cause you make me ache you bastard
And he’ll say
Oh how, oh how unreasonable
How unreasonably in love I am with everything you do
I’ll spend my days so close to you ‘cause if I’m stood here
Then I’m stood here
And I’ll stand here
I’ll stand here with you