Long Time Friends

Another little abuse
Another pointless excuse
Another joke that’s not to laugh at
Another day. Feeling like I don’t belong
I really don’t. Belong

So, I end another day feeling totally betrayed
Say hello to anger – did you miss me?
I know it so well like a long time friend
Who smiles while poisoning me

And I don’t know. If they. Still love me
And I don’t know. If they still care
But all I really know. Is I. Am sorry
I let you make me grow so un – prepared
I’m pulling at the root to tear you off me
To see if I’ll have something left
And even if it means I’m starting over
And everything I made with you means nothing
Well that doesn’t matter

I’m alone and I’m free
Cuz there’s nothing really wrong with me
And I know it doesn’t matter, no matter what they tell me
Done living for someone else’s time on someone else’s dime
So I’m drawing my line in the sand
Cuz I know it doesn’t matter

Another thing to remake
Another patient mistake
Another self humiliation
A better day. Happy that I won’t belong
Does anyone. Belong?

So, I end a lonely day feeling totally okay
Wave goodbye to anger – will you miss me?
I knew it so well like a long time friend
We’ll never be friends again

I don’t really know. If they. Still love me
And I don’t know. If they still care
But all I really know. Is I’m. Not sorry
Cuz I am on my own with no one there
To make me feel alone when they are with me
It sounds insane but au contraire
I’m cutting off the parts that kill the body
Because they never played me fair and square and
I feel fucking awesome

I’m alone and I’m free
Cuz there’s nothing really wrong with me
And I know it doesn’t matter, no matter what they tell me
Done living for someone else’s time on someone else’s dime
So I’m drawing my line in the sand
Cuz I know it doesn’t matter

I don’t really think. About. Your love now
And I don’t think. That I still care
I know without a doubt. If you. Could see me
I would ruin your week, your month, your year
Cuz you don’t have a victim you can poison
So now the poison’s all you have
I’m living a new life and don’t regret it
And you just have the memory
Bet you’ll never forget it because now

I’m alone and I’m free
Cuz there’s nothing really wrong with me
And I know it doesn’t matter, no matter what they tell me
Done living for someone else’s time on someone else’s dime
So I’m drawing my line in the sand
Cuz I know it doesn’t matter (do they even know what love is)
Yeah I know it doesn’t matter (are they growing tired of this)
Yeah I know it doesn’t matter (on my own I’ll float above this)
And I don’t really know