Roses For a Dead (ft Finn Joshua)

I’ll throw roses on your bed
Because if I throw them on your grave
I’ll have to bury myself too
I’m tired of this reality
Mom says she doesn’t have a favorite
But I know she’s lying
She prefers the younger one over me
This choice is cruel and it kills me inside

As I write my song
I cry inside smiling sad on the outside
I read my father’s last note
That described loneliness and sadness
I know how much it hurt him
And I know it hurts me too
We were two sufferers
But he’s dead and I’m alive suffering
I don’t think even in death I’ll have peace

Maybe that’s the sad truth
No one cares about your feelings
No matter how kind they are
No one sees what you suffer inside

I cut myself to take away the pain
Digging a grave for myself
As long as I live in this family
I’ll be living each day
I feel so rejected and useless
Lost in a capitalist illusion
I’ll leave roses for you my dear
And a goodbye letter
If you want to come with me we can
Lie in a grave together
And wait to return to a happier life

I didn’t ask to be born
But I was forced to grow up too fast
I lost my father when I was 14
It hurt to see my mother have another child
With another man and leave me aside
Everyone sees that I’m smiling
But the truth is I died years ago
I’m living only with your love
But I feel like we’re both dying
You make me feel alive
Even in the darkest hours of our existence

I know I’m not perfect
But no one is really perfect
So much desire to grow in the world
Without any answers
It’s disgusting not to have what we want
Especially when we’re ignored
By the people we need it the most
The truth is I swallowed my tears
I didn’t want to show weakness to anyone
Even though I found love
We both suffered equally

I cut myself to take away the pain

Digging a grave for myself
As long as I live in this family
I’ll be living each day
I feel so rejected and useless
Lost in a capitalist illusion
I’ll leave roses for you my dear
And a goodbye letter
If you want to come with me we can
Lie in a grave together
And wait to return to a happier life

Maybe that’s the sad truth
No one cares about your feelings
No matter how kind they are
No one sees what you suffer inside

But deep down we know that we are sadder in life than happy