Forty Six & 2

Join in, my
Join in, my child, and listen
Digging through my old numb shadow

My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking scabs again
I’m down, digging through
My old muscles, looking for a clue

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could have been
I’ve been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I’ve been hiding

In my shadow
My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow’s shedding skin
I’ve been picking my scabs again

Join in my
Join in my child
My shadow moves closer to the meaning

I’ve been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could have been
I’ve been wallowing in my own chaotic insecure delusions
I wanna feel the change consume me
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I’ve endured in

My shadow
My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time

Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I’ve been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to live through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do, what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way by
Stepping through my shadow
And coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me