HURT

It doesn’t feel right with you gone
It hurts too much to be left alone
I know I was never in your plans
But it doesn’t feel right in her bed
It hurts to know

If only I knew to love you, I would lose me
Would wake up just to go back to sleep
I hope you and him live happily
But the memories girl, you gonna have to keep
All the lies that you told me are on repeat
I don’t know what’s real, you lie through your teeth
If I could take the feelings that I had for you
Just like our pics, I’d press delete
I’ve been contemplating
100 times, about 100 facts, I found out were lies
I know you used me just to pass the time
But you can’t ever say I didn’t fucking try
What you meant to me is what I mean to art,
Was real with you from the fucking start
You played games with my fucking heart
And after you I fell a fucking part
Damn,
I know we weren’t perfect,
I guess I thought we were worth it
I guess your love was uncertain
You’re busy at the club flirtin’
Friends just keep feeding you bourbon
Car smelling like his cologne and your weed
For months I would think, “Is he better than me?”
I know that he can’t love you better than me
I wonder was it your intention to cheat
Can’t believe I believed you,
Keep telling myself I don’t need you
When talking to her I just see you
Alone but surrounded by people
Maybe one day you’ll change, and he’ll reap the benefits
‘Cause all you left me were questions and pain
Don’t know why I care if you’re feeling the same
I need to just get you up out of my brain

I know I was never the plan
You’re not the you you would claim
You’re not the person I met,
Don’t know the you you became
Was addicted though to the pain
And the constant games that you play
Just being real when I say, that still
(It hurts to know)

And I tried to give you a chance
But things were never the same
I ended up all alone
You ended up with a lame
Was addicted though to the pain
And the constant games that you play
Just bein’ real when I say, that still
(It hurts to know)

It doesn’t feel right with you gone
It hurts too much to be left alone
I know I was never in your plans
But it doesn’t feel right in her bed
It hurts to know

Still, you’re who my family adores
Maybe that’s why it’s hard to ignore you
After all of the time we spent
Sad to think that I still didn’t know you
Woke up in a city that we never been to, I wish I could show you
Even my music I put it below you
Just know I would have done anything for you
Remember I told you, I felt inadequate
Because you came from a family with money
And me, I have nothing, I work as a waiter with visions of turnin’ myself into something
The music was buzzing but I couldn’t pay for a bill
Off of people just saying they love it
Had class in the morning, had work in the evening
Then write through the night with no food in my stomach
Just know that it’s hard, damn
Girl it’s so fucking hard
I keep telling myself that I need to move on
But it’s hard to get close when I have up a guard
I know everything change, the old me would prolly feel shame for the bottles I’ve bought on my card
You would go to the bar, while I was stuck working a double to pay for the tank in my car
And I guess, that it’s best I pretend like I don’t give a fuck
even though to be real, I’m a mess
I’ve been tryna find anything I can find just to fill in the hole in my chest
And it’s sad to believe that a picture with me, is a picture of you and an ex
You should know that it takes everything within me to delete when I’m sending a text
Like…

It doesn’t feel right with you gone
It hurts too much to be left alone
I know I was never in your plans
I just can’t get you out of my head
It hurts to know