It Was Not Natural

When I am tired
Unbidden, I go for a walk
I have to walk
Or else I do not recognize myself

My foot uncovers
What my heart wishes is a treasure
Seemingly foreign
But somehow still it is familiar

It could be amber
It could be animal or antler
They do resemble
They do remember one another

It was not natural, all along
Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving
It was not natural, all along
Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving
Something so unforgiving

As I expected
With time it hasn’t gotten easier
I have to work now
At things that used to be like breathing

I try to focus
Forgive myself for having so much
I am too busy for it
Or else I am not busy enough

When I see clearly
I know we share the same devotion
But joy is hungry
And you know I can’t promise anything

It was not natural, all along
Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving
It was not natural, all along
Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving
Something so unforgiving