Nowhere Train

I fool myself again and again
Because the light in the tunnel was just a train
And the train was running the other way
And the light was only fading away

Seen from above it’s like I’m doing this dance
Going up and down while turning around
It’s a vicious circle and I can’t get out
Locked in darkness, lost in doubt

In the bardo my life remains on hold
Stuck in the middle, out in the cold
So let’s start the fire, let’s start that war
Now I know that’s what I’m here for

That little spark of hope inside
Is it made by the rain or made by sunlight
What if the light was just a train
At the end of the tunnel still down the drain

Lying gets easy when you know the truth
Some hollow words for a greater good
It’s a vicious circle and you know the words
Say them on repeat even if it hurts

I have a happy pill against the pain
It makes me feel like I’m on that train
Driving through the tunnel without getting out
Still locked in darkness, lost in doubt

I’m on a train to nowhere
I’m on a train and I want to get out